There is this turn I have to take to get to work. It's the kind that has two left turn lanes that go into 3 lanes on the crossing road. For some reason, people don't know what to do with this, even though there are dotted lines painted for guidance. Most people who turn here cut diagonally across the intersection and end up in the two left lanes on the crossing road.
This isn't how the lines are painted. They are painted so that you are to end up in the two right lanes. Every morning I turn from the farthest left lane, hoping to end up where I'm supposed to, in the middle lane of the new road. But no, every morning the yahoo in the other turn lane, cuts me off, forcing me into the far left lane and hogging up the middle lane. It makes me nuts.
So this morning I decide to turn from the other lane and do it properly, ending up in the far right lane. This nuts-o behind me rushes through the intersection, turning into the middle lane, forcing the other lane into the far left and then darting in front of me in the far right.
At first I thought she was just being a pushy wench and then I figured out she just wasn't paying attention and screwed up. She kept looking at me in the rear view mirror. Her eyes were darting around and I just knew she felt that "oh crap, dumb traffic move” feeling. I've had it, it sucks.
So we proceed down the road and she makes a turn, and I turn. And her eyes are there, staring at me in the mirror. Meanwhile, I'm just staring right back at her, perfectly still with no emotion on my face, sunglasses on. I imagine I look like the Terminator. She turns again, and I turn.
Then she turns again and again I turn. At this point I know she thinks I'm following her. She slows and turns into my work complex (3 large buildings all connected by parking lots) and almost stops. I'm pulling in behind her. She speeds up in the parking lot and makes a hard turn behind the 1st building. I work in the second building, so I cruise on to my normal parking area and get out and go into work.
That poor girl thought I was gonna hunt her down, confront her or fight her, for cutting me off in traffic.
It felt good. MUAHAHAHAHA!
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Monday, August 22, 2005
Belly Dancing
I was in my 4th show last night. The first one I did was about 9 months after I started dancing. 6 months later we did another one and that was the last time I danced for about 2 years.
Last summer I took up new classes and we had a small “beginner graduation” after 6 months, which moved us into Advanced I. So last night we had our first Adv. I show and it was just as fun as the rest.
All total I’ve been dancing about 2 ½ years. And up until this point I haven’t had the drive to work harder and move into the higher class and possible consider soloing at some point. But something happened yesterday. I was inspired, or aware that I’m good enough or something. I also realized I do have a great desire to do more, learn more and be better.
So instead of dancing once a week in class I think I’ll start working a bit harder. I’m going to get out the choreographies I have copies of that we have to learn to test out of Adv. I. I’m going to work on them and learn them and test out. So come Christmas, instead of doing another Adv. I routine, I’ll do an Adv. II routine, or god help me a smaller show with me and a girl or two that we work out, on our own.
I’m finally ready to move on. I figured this day would come, when I was brave enough and knew enough to feel confident. Now that it’s here, I’m excited and can’t wait to see what happens.
Maybe R.A. will get out her shinies one more time and dance a routine we know at Christmas. Just the two of us.
Last summer I took up new classes and we had a small “beginner graduation” after 6 months, which moved us into Advanced I. So last night we had our first Adv. I show and it was just as fun as the rest.
All total I’ve been dancing about 2 ½ years. And up until this point I haven’t had the drive to work harder and move into the higher class and possible consider soloing at some point. But something happened yesterday. I was inspired, or aware that I’m good enough or something. I also realized I do have a great desire to do more, learn more and be better.
So instead of dancing once a week in class I think I’ll start working a bit harder. I’m going to get out the choreographies I have copies of that we have to learn to test out of Adv. I. I’m going to work on them and learn them and test out. So come Christmas, instead of doing another Adv. I routine, I’ll do an Adv. II routine, or god help me a smaller show with me and a girl or two that we work out, on our own.
I’m finally ready to move on. I figured this day would come, when I was brave enough and knew enough to feel confident. Now that it’s here, I’m excited and can’t wait to see what happens.
Maybe R.A. will get out her shinies one more time and dance a routine we know at Christmas. Just the two of us.
Friday, August 19, 2005
Another Adventure
Despite all my whining and moaning over the past few weeks, I got over myself and registered for the regular Fall semester. I start classes week after next on the 30th, and will continue until December 15th. I took another morning class, but this time it's on Tuesdays and Thursdays.
I registered for Intro to Philosophy. I'm looking forward to it and hope to learn some new things. It counts as a liberal arts credit, which is another I need on the long list of basic courses. So we'll see how it goes. I expect to do just fine in it. I think my confidence is a bit boosted. ;)
Onto other things. On Sunday I'll be belly dancing in my 4th show. It's almost old hat now, but that doesn't mean I'm not nervous. The teacher put me in the front row, right in the center! I assume that means I know what I'm doing, which is flattering, but I still feel like I'll stick out like a sore thumb. Thinking on it a bit more, I'll probably be the one least watched. The ladies that will be noticed will be the ones not doing it right. :)
Work has also backed off a bit and I'm able to breathe a bit better. I still don't think we're completely over the implementation hump, but damn close. I've been able to send out invoices and pay bills, which stops phone calls and eases my stress.
I think Fall will come along and I'll calm down and relax. Settling into classes and easier work and preparing for Christmas! :D
Hooray for Fall !
I registered for Intro to Philosophy. I'm looking forward to it and hope to learn some new things. It counts as a liberal arts credit, which is another I need on the long list of basic courses. So we'll see how it goes. I expect to do just fine in it. I think my confidence is a bit boosted. ;)
Onto other things. On Sunday I'll be belly dancing in my 4th show. It's almost old hat now, but that doesn't mean I'm not nervous. The teacher put me in the front row, right in the center! I assume that means I know what I'm doing, which is flattering, but I still feel like I'll stick out like a sore thumb. Thinking on it a bit more, I'll probably be the one least watched. The ladies that will be noticed will be the ones not doing it right. :)
Work has also backed off a bit and I'm able to breathe a bit better. I still don't think we're completely over the implementation hump, but damn close. I've been able to send out invoices and pay bills, which stops phone calls and eases my stress.
I think Fall will come along and I'll calm down and relax. Settling into classes and easier work and preparing for Christmas! :D
Hooray for Fall !
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Monday, August 15, 2005
Foul Mood
Man, I just can't seem to pull out of this. Sure I have highlights, see the post below, but overall, I am in a foul mood.
So school is over for now and I can't muster up to desire to get into the fall semester. That sucks. I should go, and I don't want to. 2 classes down and suddenly I have zero motivation.
Work is somewhat better, but not completely and I hardly care. I'm so burned out I don't give a crap if I get my work done or not. I just want to stay home in bed.
I just scheduled a bit of time off in September, but what I'd really like to do is never come here again. 3 more full weeks of work is going to wear me down to a nub before I can take a 4 day weekend. And then what? I'll come back for 3 weeks and hate it all the same and then take another 4 day weekend.
It's a double edged sword. Work has be so worn out I don't have energy or care to do it, nor do I have energy or care to go to school. If I don't go to school, I'll never get out of this hell hole or any other job like it.
I hate it all and I don't want to do anything.
Not to mention my house. If you read my very first blog here you'll see the things I wanted to get done around the house. That was last October. They still aren't done. I have a bathroom with no wallpaper and a kitchen light fixture I paid a hefty dollar for that's laying in my closet.
There's recycling stacked up to the porch ceiling that needs taken away and my bathroom houses a laundry monster. Albeit clean at this point, but it still lives in baskets in the bathroom.
The carpets need vacuuming, the dishes need cleaning and I should probably move the 4 or 5 soda cans from the top of my desk. There are papers, mostly useless, piled all over the "dining" table.
I think I'm gonna flip out.
So school is over for now and I can't muster up to desire to get into the fall semester. That sucks. I should go, and I don't want to. 2 classes down and suddenly I have zero motivation.
Work is somewhat better, but not completely and I hardly care. I'm so burned out I don't give a crap if I get my work done or not. I just want to stay home in bed.
I just scheduled a bit of time off in September, but what I'd really like to do is never come here again. 3 more full weeks of work is going to wear me down to a nub before I can take a 4 day weekend. And then what? I'll come back for 3 weeks and hate it all the same and then take another 4 day weekend.
It's a double edged sword. Work has be so worn out I don't have energy or care to do it, nor do I have energy or care to go to school. If I don't go to school, I'll never get out of this hell hole or any other job like it.
I hate it all and I don't want to do anything.
Not to mention my house. If you read my very first blog here you'll see the things I wanted to get done around the house. That was last October. They still aren't done. I have a bathroom with no wallpaper and a kitchen light fixture I paid a hefty dollar for that's laying in my closet.
There's recycling stacked up to the porch ceiling that needs taken away and my bathroom houses a laundry monster. Albeit clean at this point, but it still lives in baskets in the bathroom.
The carpets need vacuuming, the dishes need cleaning and I should probably move the 4 or 5 soda cans from the top of my desk. There are papers, mostly useless, piled all over the "dining" table.
I think I'm gonna flip out.
Friday, August 12, 2005
System of a Down
Two words. HOLY CRAP! That was an awesome show.
I acted like a 20 year old, broke a couple of laws, danced my ass off and got really drunk. So drunk, it's 11am the next day and I can still feel it. I'm in hangover hell and I don't care. It was worth it!
And obviously, if you read my blog from the past couple of months, I needed this.
We arrived at about 7:45 and by 9:15 I was on my 4th beer and the band was coming on stage. I screamed till my head hurt, pounded my fist in the air and had a good hard headbang/body pulse going for a straight hour and a half.
My legs hurt and I kept going. My voice weakened during screams and I kept pushing. Every ounce of built up stress I forced out as hard as I could. And when they went off stage I screamed till the lights came on.
Even in the parking lot I kept whooping and hollering and we listened to the album again on the drive home and I sang and danced as best I could in the car.
Possibly the best concert experience I've ever had. I'll see these guys again every time they come through.
I acted like a 20 year old, broke a couple of laws, danced my ass off and got really drunk. So drunk, it's 11am the next day and I can still feel it. I'm in hangover hell and I don't care. It was worth it!
And obviously, if you read my blog from the past couple of months, I needed this.
We arrived at about 7:45 and by 9:15 I was on my 4th beer and the band was coming on stage. I screamed till my head hurt, pounded my fist in the air and had a good hard headbang/body pulse going for a straight hour and a half.
My legs hurt and I kept going. My voice weakened during screams and I kept pushing. Every ounce of built up stress I forced out as hard as I could. And when they went off stage I screamed till the lights came on.
Even in the parking lot I kept whooping and hollering and we listened to the album again on the drive home and I sang and danced as best I could in the car.
Possibly the best concert experience I've ever had. I'll see these guys again every time they come through.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
4 Down, 2 Days To Go
A bit late on this post, but I wanted to wait until I had my 3rd test score. I got another 96. Honestly I thought I had done worse than the others, but apparently I knew more than I thought I did. I also turned in my paper last night. I'm not worried about it and I'm not worried about the last test on Wednesday... tomorrow. I have no fear that I'll be keeping my 4.0.
The test score was a shining moment yesterday. I wish it had come earlier in the day, but I'll take what I can get. Work sucked. It was only Monday, after a restful weekend, and by 5 o'clock I had a knot in my stomach so big all I could do was break down and let the stress overwhelm me. I cried again. Quietly in my cube so no one would know. This happened a week or so ago too. I hate it. People aren't supposed to cry at work.
We're STILL working in data to get the new system going full force. It's about to make me loose my hair. I won't be surprised if I get a few grays from this. All I can do is keep hoping the end is in sight. And hope I don't completely fall apart in the process.
At this point I think I am gonna skip the fall semester. I have no desire to continue pushing on at this moment. I'm afraid it'll drive me insane. All I want to do is stay home and do nothing. I don't want to have anywhere to go or have anything to prepare for.
We'll see. My next post may be from a straight jacket.
The test score was a shining moment yesterday. I wish it had come earlier in the day, but I'll take what I can get. Work sucked. It was only Monday, after a restful weekend, and by 5 o'clock I had a knot in my stomach so big all I could do was break down and let the stress overwhelm me. I cried again. Quietly in my cube so no one would know. This happened a week or so ago too. I hate it. People aren't supposed to cry at work.
We're STILL working in data to get the new system going full force. It's about to make me loose my hair. I won't be surprised if I get a few grays from this. All I can do is keep hoping the end is in sight. And hope I don't completely fall apart in the process.
At this point I think I am gonna skip the fall semester. I have no desire to continue pushing on at this moment. I'm afraid it'll drive me insane. All I want to do is stay home and do nothing. I don't want to have anywhere to go or have anything to prepare for.
We'll see. My next post may be from a straight jacket.
Monday, August 01, 2005
3 Down, 2 To Go
Only two weeks of class remain. 2 more tests and a paper will happen before next Wednesday.
I made a 94 on my second test, so the A is still secure. I also wrote the rough draft to my paper this past weekend. It is due tonight. It's total crap, but I still have time to improve before I turn in the final paper.
In other news, the last two weeks I've spent Friday nights riding my bike with Honey and my dad. We've biked about 13 miles each night! I presume it'll be a regular thing cause we're getting together again this Friday. It's fun. :)
I also have a belly dance show performance on the 21st. I've got to finish putting together my costume for that and practice the steps a bit. We'll be going over it and over it the next couple of weekends in class though, and I've pretty much got it down.
I spent all day yesterday at my brother's house. We played hard in the pool, with the kids. I wore myself out. I wanted to stay in bed this morning, but alas, the stupid work implementation is still going on and I've got too much to do to take a day off.
Rest and relaxation is in sight... I hope.
I made a 94 on my second test, so the A is still secure. I also wrote the rough draft to my paper this past weekend. It is due tonight. It's total crap, but I still have time to improve before I turn in the final paper.
In other news, the last two weeks I've spent Friday nights riding my bike with Honey and my dad. We've biked about 13 miles each night! I presume it'll be a regular thing cause we're getting together again this Friday. It's fun. :)
I also have a belly dance show performance on the 21st. I've got to finish putting together my costume for that and practice the steps a bit. We'll be going over it and over it the next couple of weekends in class though, and I've pretty much got it down.
I spent all day yesterday at my brother's house. We played hard in the pool, with the kids. I wore myself out. I wanted to stay in bed this morning, but alas, the stupid work implementation is still going on and I've got too much to do to take a day off.
Rest and relaxation is in sight... I hope.
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